Today has been one of "those" days. One of the days I want to just sit here and miss Matthew, one of the days that I cannot stop thinking about him and everything reminds me of him. From the way the clothes smell to songs that come on the radio. I mean forget ever listening to music because EVERYTHING reminds me of him. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE what reminds me of him, but I HATE how much it makes me miss him.
After going to dinner with Kristin and Brian and spending the day mostly just missing Matthew and sad, I come home to read this sweet message he left me on this blog. I never really check it because well, no one ever writes on here except me. With that note, let's just say my day became instantly better. I cannot say this time away from each other is "worth it", but I know he over there for the right reasons. I just have a hard time because I am selfish with my husband. I want him back and all to myself. Right now I am sharing him with EVERYTHING and EVERYONE and I just want him back to myself where we can be a family and not have to worry about Afghanistan.
Matthew, thank you for that note, my love. It was such a nice surprise and I cannot wait until I can tell you how much I love you face-to-face everyday. You make me so happy and give me such joy. I love you, handsome.
I am going to feed to babies.....and I have a headache.
Love to all, but my heart to Matthew. Oh and P.S. Matthew, Layla already knows her DADDY is the crazy one! But she adores you anyway, it's ok! hehe!
1 comment:
Katie,
i wish i could come spend some time with you so you wouldn't be so sad. i wish Agusta wasn't so far from even marietta.
call me when you get lonely, , at least this week i have been home in the afternoons. i Know you will be Celebrating Easter with Kristin and Brian, what a Joyous Day to Celebrate!
i am going to try and call you soon, i promise.
Love, Joyce
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