Start of week 36!

Can I get an AMEN! This whole chapter of my life is slowly coming to an end, pregnancy during deployment....YUCK! But, it has been a beautiful thing feeling and noticing my body change. I must say that I am one of the few women that LOVES being pregnant. All of my pregnant friends cannot WAIT to have their babies and be done with it, but I on the other hand am truly going to miss my baby bump! I pray I make it another 10 days until Matthew gets home so that he can be a part of this little miracle I am growing! It seems like just yesterday that we were in California for Christmas and I was still fitting in my favorite jeans! This year has been a CRAZY year and I must say I hardly remember the whole first 6 months except how I missed Matthew and couldn't WAIT for next week to come! I cannot believe we are closing in on the end of July 2007!!!

At the end of last year, I thought there was NO way that the next year would be as great as that one. Matthew and I met, got engaged, married, moved into a new home, got our wonderful doggies, and then found out we were pregnant to close the year. WHAT A JOY! But now.....approaching the second half of this year I realize something.....each year with Matthew IS getting sweeter. Life with him IS getting better with time and I see now how once you find the one you love SO much that time really does FLY by!! If I don't watch it, we will be 30 years old and looking back at these times as great, but always getting better! I want to enjoy this time with him....this time with Layla. I am cherishing the small things now, her little hiccups, kicks and squirms. I am realizing things I never want to take for granted again from Matthew.....his hugs, his kisses, and how it feels to be held by him. After so many months apart I realize that those memories DO fade, but the ones that don't are the times where we laugh until we cry, we sing at the top of our lungs and both sound terrible, the times when we feel free in each other to be completely ourselves. I will never forget the way it feels when he looks in my eyes and the way it feels when he stops time just to tell me he loves me for no reason at all. THOSE are the memories that will never fade. And now, with next week approaching faster by the day, I get more and more excited for us to refresh the memories of hugs and kisses, to refresh our laughter and tears. Time and time again I have said it, and I will never tire of saying it......I never know WHO reads this blog, but what I DO know is that Matthew IS my greatest, most precious gift. And I love being able to call him my own.

To all of our friends and family.....this week will undoubtedly be a long one, but it will also be the greatest anticipation, the greatest excitement that I have ever had in my life. More so than waiting for our wedding do I look forward to seeing Matthew's face again and feeling his hand cover mine knowing he is safe and in my arms again.

Matthew does not have access to the internet right now since he is traveling for the next couple of weeks, but if he ever looks back and reads this.....I want you to know that tomorrow is just another day until my tomorrow brings you back to me. I love you with all that I am!